Music is curative. It’s been a rough week because of a very personal loss, too much work and home stuff, and health related issues and it’s all really impacting my headspace. While I wanted to celebrate along with the rest of the fandom as BTS took one step closer to conquering the entire world, I found myself reacting uncharacteristically. I felt possessive and a smidge bitter…and if you know me, you know that’s not normal. I am not a jealous person and certainly not about music. Bands that I love are something I want to share with everyone. So instead of joining the frenzy, I withdrew a little bit in an attempt to figure out what was going on in my little brain.
I’ll try to avoid being all emotional and sappy in this post, because nobody wants that garbage. Being a pretty solid extrovert, a wife, mother, and full-time employee, withdrawing looks a little different for me than it does for a lot of people. I can’t completely shut people out. It’s not in me. But I haven’t been very proactive in my own reaching out, for better or worse, and I haven’t felt particularly chatty. I have, however, been spending a lot of time writing, reading, and listening to comfort music while doing all of those work and domestic related tasks that never seem to end. To me, comfort music is a collection of songs that I turn to as a restorative. Music that makes me sing along, maybe tear up, and then ultimately, want to share it with people in my excitement. See how that works? The music actually compels me to reach out and talk to people because I HAVE to share it. It literally brings me back to myself.
The song The Cure by Drunken Tiger, Yoonmirae, and Bizzy has a firm place on that list of songs that make me feel better. First, the music this trio puts out is right up my alley. The blend of singing and rap is perfection and Yoonmirae’s vocals hit me right in that spot in the middle of my chest that gives me goosebumps…you know what I mean, that twinge right there and then you feel it all over your skin. She does that to me. Second, the actual lyrics of the song tend to accurately represent how I feel about the world when I’m in this kind of bad headspace – a kind of optimistic realism. Life sucks, but someone out there gets me and I’ll keep going because if I need them, they probably need me too. And third, the video itself is the perfect visual for all of those repressed feelings. The trio is each alone in their own dilapidated or shabby space going through the motions of being down. However, the good things, the support, the beauty of nature, the little bits of magic that will ultimately make them feel better are depicted all around them as fragile line drawings darting in and out of their reality. The music, the lyrics, and the visual are all so poetic. It’s lovely.
So though I don’t necessarily feel like chatting about any of it yet, I do feel really happy sharing this song with everyone and hope that you are feeling as good about it as I am. The thought that you might like it makes me feel pretty excited.
And come on, yo, it’s Tiger JK. That should be enough to fix a lot of what ails a person.
Drunken Tiger, Yoonmirae, and Bizzy, The Cure