Remember when I was super excited about for Faith to start as it was going to be my first simulcast? Remember how excited I was when it first started, I even did that one post? Then do you remember me saying anything else? No you don’t. because no I didn’t.
I’m embarrassed to say I only made it to episode 4. This is no reflection of the show, this has nothing to do with Lee Min Ho. It’s not you, it’s me.
At first I was really excited about watching with everyone else. That first night I even had a great chat with Tayfan going over every aspect of it. Talking about what happened, what we thought happened, what we liked, and didn’t like, and most especially, what we thought was going to happen in the future.
I was part of a community. I know I already am part of the Kdrama community, however, being relevant, watching an ongoing show? Running out to read a recap right after I finished an episode? It was a crazy new experience.
But then real life kicked in. Yes, we all know I was a big slacker the last couple of weeks in Kdrama-land, and I’m sure that’s part of the reason I got so far behind, but knowing me, that wasn’t everything.
At the end of the episode (you know, of the 4 I watched), I’d be very excited for the next week. I believe I may have even said, “this waiting for new episodes is for suckers!” Especially after the end of episode 4 and the big “YOU’RE A DEMON,” theory the bad guy was tossing around. But then, by the time the next week rolled around, and the episodes were subbed, the need, that drive to see the next episode was gone.
Which is exactly what I do with American Television. Hrm.
Now I look at the schedule and realize this week I’ll officially be 8 episodes behind and it just seems daunting. I could do it if I choose to catch up on Faith rather than marathoning something new this weekend, but I’m not sure I care enough to do it. I think to get the momentum back up I should start over, but why? I’ll just run out of episodes again.
I’m choosing to believe my ambivalence is only due to scheduling and my own weirdness rather than the drama itself. It would just be sad if a show I looked forward to for so long wasn’t interesting enough to keep my (admittedly gnat-like) attention span. The sheer cuteness of Lee Min Ho alone should be worth at least 10 episodes.
Will I catch up? I honestly don’t know. Will I continue to feel guilty for not catching up? Well, yes, you know, ’cause that’s how I roll.